I haven’t done a post in a while. In fact, I have drafts started, a video unedited and a list of ideas. Sometimes, life changes your priorities and that happened to me last year. I have hopes to get back into writing, but this is my random post in the meantime.
God meets me where I am at…frustration, worry, anger.
I’m an independent, over-achiever that can’t stand when my human weaknesses limit me. When I resist facing the evidence of my weaknesses, it leads to displaying the many character flaws I work so hard to hide. Be honest – we all try to hide our flaws, especially women because we don’t want to seem weak or emotional.
I need to reset, realign, refocus. I know what I need to do to have a healthy mind, spend more time in God’s presence. I need to focus on His truth – his living, breathing truth.
Sometimes before I can get to the calm and rational response though, I embrace the resistance and all the emotions and pour out my heart to God. I’m real with Him because I can be.
I have confidence that God can handle it in all it’s ugliness. He will still love me unconditionally. Eventually, I get to the point of worship – which can sometimes take a few days in my stubbornness and self-pity. But I do get there…because I know His grace and mercy extend to me constantly, and I see it even more in my ugliness!
Resetting, realigning, refocusing…
O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge.
Psalm 19: 12
How can I know all the sins lurking in my heart? Cleanse me from these hidden faults.
For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires.
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
But God is so rich in mercy, and he loved us so much, that even though we were dead because of our sins, he gave us life when he raised Christ from the dead. (It is only by God’s grace that you have been saved!)